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[Apr. 7th, 2005|09:29 pm] |
laura saegebarth, you sexy son of a bitch, you're probably the only one who still reads this crazy shit. i havent updated it in like a fuckin year. well, i might just start writing in it again, for you, my darling.
so a toast to you, miss saegebarth. ill miss you next year.
to anyone else who enjoys reading about my life......uhh........not much has changed, except for i have a beard now. other than that, im pretty much the same person, only more badass. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2004|02:11 am] |
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| | bored as f*ck | ] |
| [ | music |
| | it's 2 o'clock in the fuckin morning... what music? | ] |
tomorrows friday, but i can't get to fuckin sleep and i'm bored as shit sooo... do this if you want...
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
later punks
-shawn |
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| did you miss meee?? |
[Aug. 25th, 2004|04:27 pm] |
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| | pretty damn good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | until the day i die | ] |
here ye, here ye:
shawn thomas delaney's live journal is back in fuckin session. that's right, i'm back whether you like it or not. let's see, the last time i updated was... woah before summer. well, then you're in for a few stories my friend. summer sure was wild. some of it was soo amazing, some of it wasn't soo amazing, and some of it i don't even want to talk about... so... i'm not going to.
how shall we begin our journey through time?
hmm... at the beginning of the summer i had summer school. wow, talk about homosexual. i had like the worst teacher ever who didn't even know what the fuck she was doing and she talked funny. the only plus side of summer school was that i had it with a few hip kids. the major downer of summer school was when that black kid punched me in the face. fuck, that hurt. what? you haven't heard the story? well then i guess i gotta tell you. i don't really feel like typing a lot so i'm gonna make this as brief as possible:
black kid wants money. black kid tries taking money from hott white kid. black kid pushes hott white kid into a wall. hott white kid defends himself in a non-violent way by throwing some water at black kid. black kid punches hott white kid in the face. black kid gets suspended from lake brantley. hott white kid spends the next 3 or 4 days in the front office signing papers telling my side of the story like 17 different times and gets fucked over because his grade drops because his teacher is satan and wont let him make up work. hott white kid remains a badass. the end.
okay, so that wasn't so short... but uhh... moving on...
i dropped out of summer school cuz my grade was like a low F because, again, my teacher and the black kid screwed me. ...bastards...
next stop, new symrna. my family bought a condo up there. hell yesss! we stayed there for like the whole month of july. tons of friends visited and it was just killerrrr. colin has a condo there too and the week that he was there with his family was awesome. it was him, scott, rich and i hanging out the whole time. saweet!! like 2 weeks later colin came back to stay with me for 3 days. also, for those 3 days, michelle, doney, and caitlin stayed at michelle's condo. we hung out with them for those 3 days and had some madd crazy fun yo. after all those crazy kids left, i just sorta enjoyed myself at zee beach. Life is definitely better at zee beachh. that's for damn sure.
well, school is here again!! hurray school!! everybody loves school!! hahaha no. actually, to be perfectly honest, my school year is starting out quite keen. i have amazing classes. especially 1st period; PC support with colin, scott, and rich? wait my 3 best friends? wait, what? just us 4 in the class? huh? what is PC support? uhh well, let's see... the first week of school my teacher was like "if you guys ever have any homework you need to do go ahead and do that first, then i'll see if i have a job for you" and basically, when he Does have a job for us, it's hooking up a dvd player in a classroom... oooorr helping a teacher work their computer. it's 110% bullshit. and we get an academic credit for it. snap suckas. that shits off the hook. that's black people talk for: "holy cow, fellas. that is some neat stuff."
okay i have like 1 more thing to talk about... probably the most important thing. The EO. wow. i can only think of 1 word to describe the EO........ sex. seriously, the EO is full of my best friends and just hanging out with them makes me forget about some of the bad shit that happened this summer that i'm not even gonna get into. thanks guys. oh and before i forget, The EO is going to be having EO parties like every 3 weeks or so. that night before the hurricane at scott's house was a demo of the EO parties to come. so watch out cause EO parties are comin your way.
my love life.... kinda blows. well it's not that it blows, it's just sorta slow right now, but i do think i like someonnnneeeee :D
okay well... i think this entry is long enough. i could write like 100 more paragraphs about my summer, but i'm kind of lazy and hungry soo... yea. take it eaasyyy.
-shawn |
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| one hell of a weekend... |
[May. 17th, 2004|11:27 pm] |
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| | the sound of adrienne's voice | ] |
What a weekend. seriously. this 3-day weekend was one i will never forget. want me to explain? oh wait, even if you didn't want me to i would because, uhh, fuck you? k thanks.
let's start with thursday. alright well even at school was cool. there was a lunch-in during 3rd period that all people who didn't get detentions, referrals, shit like that were invited to. well, i've received like 4 detentions. but anyways, during second period of the day before everyone got little yellow slips varifying that they are aloud to go to the lunch-in. well i was like "fuck. i hate 3rd period with a passion. i'm not going." So this crazy idea popped in my head and it was like "pop" and i was like "whoa, holy shit... i can't get in without one of those passes right?" and someone who i didn't know was like "riight..." and i was like "well i will just make one of those passes!!" so then i go home and print out my name and cut it out so it's like a little slip. Then, i get to school and in second period i got one of my friends passes from him and taped my name over his. Then, coppied it onto yellow paper, cut it out so it was the same size as the passes and BAM!! i had my own lunch pass thingy. If you're confused, then i guess that's too bad. The pass worked though so that's all that matters. Thanks to everyone who helped out with that. THEN LATER THAT NIGHT at scott's house it was just a grand'ol time. If i typed everything that happened i'd be here for hours, but i'll try to say most of it. So it started out being colin, pat, ryan, scott (of course), and i at scott's house. well i don't remember exactly how it got started but we kinda all started beating eachother up. Then everyone just started beating ME up. yea... i was pretty mad so i pretended to flip out. Then i pretended to walk home and scott came after me and i turned around and go "pretend like i'm kicking the shit out of you" so then he gets on the ground and i start "kicking the shit out of him" and ryan, pat, and colin bought it. but then ryan and colin got in on it. so then i pretend to walk home again and i hide in the bushes. then pat goes "this is crazy i'm going to get him" so pat takes the car to go get me" then i sneak back to scott's, rip my shirt, put ketchup on me and dirty myself up a little. pat comes back and i'm pretending to me like really hurt in the neighbors yard. scott is just cussing like "he's a little pussy bla bla bla" and pat, being the responsible young man that he is, is like "get in the car shawn. i'll take you home man." so i get in and he sorta talks to me on the way back asking me what happened and what-not. and me and scott did SUCH a kickass acting job, i must say. so anyways, we get to my driveway and i'm like "i don't know what i'm going to tell my parents. oh my god." and pat goes "well...... *sniff sniff* .... it smells like you got ketchup on you." and i start cracking up. So he's like "no seriously it does smell like you go-..... wow, you guys are just fucking with me aren't you" and it was sooo funny. so we totally got pat, but we were still horny for pranking. So we call beck and he got back from the football game and we tell him to come over. Then, ryan calls him back and goes "oh my god beck you have to come here like now. shawn and scott are fighting and they are totally trashing scotts house and oh my god you have to come now we don't know what to do" and beck thinks he's kidding. but he does come. Well before he gets there me and scott ready up. we totally trash his house. we flipped over couches, tvs, lamps, you name it. it was a train wreck. so beck walks in and his face was priceless. me and scott are "fighting" and i run out and go "scott you know what? fuck you man. it was funny at first but you crossed a mother fuckin like" and so i run out and slam the door and shit. scott added a good touch to the prank and threw all my shit on the front lawn (nice move scott) so i was like "i don't even want my fucking stuff!!" Beck is totally clueless to the fact that scott and i are just acting (that shit could win an academy award, seriously) Beck starts vacuuming because the house is a mess (what a gentleman). well, i go back and i try to "talk to scott" about all of this but he just "hits" me and then we start "fist fighting" again. All while beck's face is still in complete shock. So then i leave screaming "i just wanted to fucking talk but you fucking hit me. ya know what scott? fuck you, fuck our friendship. i don't give a shit anymore" so i leave. and beck comes with my sandals and he's like "hey man here... i'll walk your sandals home" and i was "crying" because after all, i was "bleeding". Well beck tried getting the story from me and i was like "he fucking hit me with a bat. in the stomach and i started coughing up blood" Beck was amazed. anyways beck's helping me home and then pat, colin, and ryan come in the car and they go "get in. we have to work all this out" and so me and beck got in and we got to scott's street and then suddenly, in the very back seat we hear "pssst beck... you just got served" from scott's mouth. BEST. PRANK. EVER. And if you don't think so, then again, fuck you.
I'm not even close to done, bitch. So if you have to go to the bathroom or go get some popcorn i would do so now.
Back?? mmkay. so friday came along and we spent the night at scott's the night before, after we cleaned up. so we were there and the family room was all clean and shit, but then, me and colin have a brilliant idea... we decided to make a fort. it was fucking awesome actually. it was pretty cool and it was really comfortable. we were just lying around in it and we somehow named it Fort Ever. so we just started saying "Fort Ever!!" in an extremely gay voice. It was hilarious. Then later that day we went to colin's and spent the night there. then we woke up and it was a nice saturday and we were like "wow we're bored what should we do?" so we played with airsoft guns. they are soo much fun. they shoot little plastic pelits and it was soo cool cuz Colin lives on a lake. So we were like in a boat and shit shooting eachother it was SOOO cool. So yea now i love airsoft guns and i have one now. We play all the time so anyone who wants to join us, call me. We then went back to scott's and i didn't spend the night because i needed a good night sleep in my own bed, but i did have a good time there. I'm leaving a lot of details out but look how long this is already. Basically... beck got served, my friends and i play with airsoft guns all the time now, and i'm still a badass.
The one downer of the weekend was that i didn't get to see adrienne at all. :( i was really sad because i was looking forward to seeing her but i never really got a chance. But i WILL see her next weekend even if i have to fucking hitchhike to her house.
Today was like the last monday of school!! i'm excited. it was a pretty good one too. Had a huge county bio test thing that i sort of guessed on but it was pretty easy so whatever. Then alan, braxton, demarco, scott, and i played poker with the last 10 minutes of class. No one had any money so we agreed that we will play with 2 dollars each and bring the money tomorrow and pay what ever we lose. So in the 10 minutes of playing i got up to $9.50. it was pretty awesome because, c'mon, it's money. after school i went to scotts and played airsoft for a bit with pat, colin, scott, and jimmy. beck ended up coming too but by the time beck got there some old guy banned us from playing in the neighborhood. so we were like "meh, let's go to the woods" so we went to riverbend and played there and it was pretty fun. we will get better guns soon and it will be SOO awesome. which is why i need money. so i'll just keep playing poker in bio and taking everyones money.
well, now i'm exhausted from running around all day shooting people. i'm on the phone with adrienne currently and we are trying to figure out how to close this entry. she's not really helping at all, but i guess she's trying. thanks adrienne i <3 you. goodnight everybodyyyyyyyy.
-shawn- |
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[May. 11th, 2004|01:13 am] |
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| | violence - blink | ] |
hey there. it's been quite some time since i've updated. a lot has been going on in this life of mine. good mostly. in fact... i don't think i'll be saying one bad thing in this entry. usually journals are like "my life is soo sad. i got a paper cut today. then, i really needed a tissue and there were none, so i slit my wrists." yea... today my faithful friends, you will not be seeing any of that (and probably never). Let's start with the weekend of may 1st... that saturday was the beautiful caitlin alcorn's 16th birthday par-tay (shes my long lost twin). It was really fun cuz i got to see a lot of people i knew and got to meet people too. i saw Adrienne and popped the question. yea, that's right... we're married. it was pretty awesome. i also made a toast to caitlin cuz she's like... the coolest and my twin so... i felt that i had to. i think i did an okay job. it was my first toast ever so if you didn't enjoy it... fuck you. kay? thanks. oh then i spent the night at richie's with beck and we played an intense game of monopoly. they played for a while and ended up calling it a tie. but for me... i got my ass handed to me on a platter... with french fried potatoes. i don't remember what happened that sunday, but who cares? it's sunday.
well it was a new week and there was nothing really to look forward to. the last episode of friends was on thursday and since i Love that show soo much i was pretty upset. i didn't cry... much... (sniff sniff) well, it was pretty much another gay week full of school, homework, and just a bunch of shit like that. but i didn't care... cuz the up-coming saturday was the BLINK CONCERT ...yea... it was pretty freaking great. wait no, it was amazing. it was like the best night in the world... i was jumping the whole time. jumping up and down for that long is a really good workout. there was a few conflicts when i was trying to give away the three free tickets that i had. yea, i know it seems like there wouldn't be any problems with that, but there was. Richie was def. going since day one. i invited Adrienne, but she was going scuba diving with her dad over the weekend. so she couldn't go which sucked. then i invited caitlin and she was sick so she couldn't go. then i was like "wow the answer's been in front of me the whole time" so i invited colin and scott. good choice. they were fun. oh before i went to the concert... for some strange reason i made a shirt with a sharpie that said "I'm what Willis was talkin' about." ... what possessed me to make such a shirt? i don't know. i just did. i saw a lot of people there. shell, doney, nikki, birdie, who ever the hell was there with them were like... two sections over. that was pretty cool. then i saw alicia, blake, julian, and a bunch of random faces that i see wondering the halls of brantley. it was awesome. i'm definitely going to all of their concerts from here on out. seriously... best. night. ever. haha then, after the concert, we walked out and saw a limo and i remember earlier that night shell told me they had a limo. so like... we started banging on the window of the limo and then i called lauren and asked her to unroll her window and she's like "shawny... we're already on markhamwoods road" and i was like "oh shit" so we ran away. then... colin, scott, rich, and i didn't have a ride home. so we were waiting there for like 30 minutes, but it wasn't all bad. then sunday was mothers day. i picked my mother flowers and helped my dad and my brothers make her dinner. i love my mom she is one of a kind.
well... now it's monday night or actually tuesday morning. school was meh... i skipped 1st period because i was soooo tired. plus, i have to take the exam in that class anyway. after school, i was SOO glad to be home. i talked to adrienne on the phone for like... 3 hours or something. it was nice getting to talk to her. i will be seeing her this thursday, i hope =) nothing in store really for the rest of school this week. i'm just glad we have friday off. alright i guess i'm calling it a night. take it easy everyone.
-shawn- |
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[Apr. 28th, 2004|01:29 am] |
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| | empty apartment - yellowcard | ] |
today was pretty lame. I woke up late so i was rushing to get ready and shit. Then I didn't do my math homework so my teacher (Ms. Webster... she's black) was like "shawn you bez be starta ta do you homewurrk cuz i aint playin games no mo" ...yea... sorry Ms. Webster I don't speak ebonics. it's bad enough that math is my worst subject and i don't understand it, but on top of that, i don't understand my teacher when she teaches it. I have a low C in that class, but 10 bucks says if my teacher could use correct grammar i'd have a B at least. Then in spanish i had a test that i didn't study for because my spanish teacher only talks in spanish. Sorry i don't speak spanish, bitch. why do you think i'm in the class? to learn it!! Yea me and my spanish teacher don't get along too well. We're like oil and... satan. oh yea, I had a detention today (given to me by none other then my satanic spanish teacher) and i didn't tell anyone about it because it completely slipped my mind cause i got it yesterday. So my brother calls me wondering where i was and i was going to tell him to wait a little bit, but then Tony (the most man-like, meanest black woman around... she has a beard for christ's sake) sees me and she's like "hey white boy!! get up on outta hea!! no cell phones!! leave!! now i see you here tomorrow!! same time" ...... i'll tell you my secret now........ i see black people... they're everywhere. you know the prickly things on the back of your neck? ... that's them. I think i can get through this though. (deep breath) there's only 18 more days of school. good thing too cause i'm about to go karate-style on someone.
well i'm supposed to be going tomorrow to serve another detention, but i'm not going to cause my dad's picking me up early so i can go get my permit :) i'm looking forward to that.
also looking forward to this weekend. hopefully, i'll get to see miss adrienne for more than 20 minutes (stupid fat kids) also the blink concert is nearing. 11 fuckin days!!
alright well it's bed time for me. hopefully i'll have a better day tomorrow? please?
-shawn- |
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[Apr. 26th, 2004|12:57 am] |
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| | the reason - hoobastank | ] |
hey there. my last entry presented a bunch of things that were in store for my life. Most of those things didn't turn out too well. My life is still going pretty good it's just moving sort of slow.
mmm... let's see. i was supposed to get my permit on friday during 1st and 2nd period, but my dad was like "bla bla bla i'm a lame-ass and i think we should go after school bla bla" so we did. we walked in the DMV and the guy at the desk (Stuart was his name) hands us a number and he's like "bla bla bla it's going to be a 2 hour wait because bla bla" and i'm like "hey pops i saw a chik-fil-a (which is my favorite fast food place) on the way over can we go there and come back?" and he enjoyed the idea. Since we were #27 and they were at #5 we had plenty of time. Well we got our chik-fil-a and came back to the DMV about an hour and a half later. We walk in and look at the # and it still says "5". So i'm pretty pissed cause they've been at 5 for too fuckin long. So i go up to the guy and i'm like "hey stuart, what's going on here?" and he's like "bla bla our computers are down. i'm gay bla bla" so i was like "fuck dad... this is lame" and my dad's like "let's go home blaaaaa" and it sucked cause i was looking so forward to getting my permit. I'm supposed to be going this wednesday during school, but who knows what'll happen?
After that whole ordeal i went to scott's which is always a fun time. I love going there. it's such a great escape from the hell-hole we call "school". thanks scott for letting us all come over and just for being such a good friend.
I went over to Adrienne's on saturday. the only thing missing was Adrienne. when beck and i got there she was babysitting these fat kids (lol adrienne) and she didn't get done till about 11:20. it sucked a lot because i wanted to spend lots of time with her, but i didn't get to :( hopefully i will get to see her a lot more this weekend :) while she was babysitting, beck, tiffany, and i hung out with doney which is always a good time. doney's sort of worried about her surgery tomorrow (even though it's gonna go well), but i'm saying a prayer for her just cuz she deserves it. i owe her a lot.
so yea, i still have a few things to take care of, but they will be over and done with eventually. for now, it's off to bed. later, you sexy son of a bitch, you.
-shawn |
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[Apr. 20th, 2004|01:54 am] |
My last entry was pretty deep. Every now and then I think i'll make an entry like that to spice up this journal instead of just boring you telling you about my life. oh, speaking of my life...
...it's going pretty fuckin' kickass.
Not everything in my life is perfect, but the majority of it is. There's a few things i'd like to add and there's a few things i'd like to take out, but i'm not going to complain.
Either this thursday or this friday i'm skipping school to go get my permit. Yea, i'm pretty nervous. I should really study cuz i heard it's sort of hard. Anyone have one of those little books I can borrow?
I'm going to the Blink concert on may 8th!! Holy shit, i'm excited!! they are my favorite band!! i should really thank Michelle for that (she kinda got me into them cuz she's a die-hard blink182 fan... has been since day 1) She's going too, along with Doney and a bunch of people. Alicia's going too and me and her are counting down the days. I don't think i'm sitting next to any of them, but i'll be sitting next to richie and a few other people, so it's all good. oh, speaking of michelle, we haven't really talked lately. I usually talk to her all the time, but we haven't had a real conversation in a while. i'm not sure why exactly but I hope we talk soon cuz i miss her :(
I must say, it seems my love life is doing 10 times better than it was. it's actually the main reason why my life is doing so well at present. See, before it was kinda like "...meh..." and now it's kinda like "yippy hurray!!" and in my book, "yippy hurray!!" is a very good thing. anyway, I will definitely have more information about this a little later. good information, i hope :)
mmmm... yea that's pretty much all for this entry. Tune in next time for the exciting conclusions to all of the topics in this entry!! time for bed. take care. -shawn |
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[Apr. 13th, 2004|01:01 am] |
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what the hell are we doing? we've been doing the same thing for 10 years now. we wake up, go to school, get out of school, and this is where some of us do a sport and some of us go home and do homework, then we eat dinner and go to bed. This is not what i want to do with my life. When I was younger, i wanted to be a famous musician more than anything in the world. It was my life. Now, i hardly have time for that anymore. All I have time for now is school and homework. I guarantee the stuff that i'm learning in school wont help me become a famous musician. It seems like all of the stuff we're (or at least i'm) doing lately is a waste of time. I don't know. This just isn't how i wanted my life to be. I don't want to spend day in and day out doing school work of any kind. I mean, i know were all doing it together, but that doesn't make it better. It just seems like we are doomed of becoming what we desire to be in the "real world" because we're spending the majority of our time doing school work. I know we aren't in the "real world" yet and we still have our whole lives ahead of us, but at this rate, we'll never become what we've dreamed of becoming since we were infants. My guess is that 90% of us will become something that we wont want to be. We'll probably end up working in cubicles and pretend to enjoy our lives. We may be married, if we're lucky. We will wake up, go to work, go home, eat dinner and go to bed. It seems like if we're not a part of that lucky 10%, then what we are doing currently is pretty much the same thing we will be doing a few years down the road. Our dreams will be outdone by our lives, by the "real world". It just seems like doing the same, dull thing day by day is getting us no where in the life that we wanted as kids. I'm just afraid that in a few years we will be so caught up in all of the same bullshit that is supposedly "the right thing to do", that we will forget all about what we wished for when we were younger. That our dreams will just become... dreams. I know our dreams can become reality and I also know that this, our life at this state, is no way of achieving that. |
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[Apr. 7th, 2004|01:33 am] |
well, I just posted yesterday so there's really no purpose to post right now, but ya know what? i'm bored and theres nothing better to do at this time of night... or should I say morning. I really should be going to sleep right about now, but whenever i try, I end up lying in bed for like 2 hours thinking about everything that's going on in my life. I took a nap earlier though, so that sorta makes up for it... right?
uhh... oh, I didn't even get to vote for Richie cuz i forgot my ID. Who brings their ID to school anyway? honestly. That little 2x4 inch piece of plastic is such an insignificance in my life. and why do you need it to go to the bathroom? like... why the fuck would you need to let someone know who you are to take a piss? wow... i'm so bored/tired that i'm talking smack about the student ID's.
I think i like someone!! or someoneS... I'm confused in that area at this time. but then again, i'm pretty much always confused in that area. i really just want a girlfriend. like... really.
i think i'm done here. This whole entry was pointless (hence the subject name), but i'll post again later when i have something interesting to talk about. take care everyone.
-shawn |
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| we meet again... |
[Apr. 6th, 2004|01:02 am] |
the life at present...
daammn... i haven't updated in like forever. Wow... I don't even have that much to say. It's been a pretty good couple weeks. I don't know why, but i was in a bit of a slump before, and lately, i've been really enjoying myself. Even a little bit in school... nah.
I fuckin' love my friends. I've realized that when you are sad or mad or anything negative like that, you can count on your friends to be there for you no matter what. It really makes me more secure about, like, everything i do knowing that theres always at least one person who's got my back and shit like that.
Richie's running for Vice President next year and I guess i'm kind of his unofficial campaign manager, haha. i made a bunch of kick-ass fliers for him and the comments i've heard about em are awesome. Rich and I were both in a very creative mood that night. I'm not feeling to creative at the moment though... maybe just tired. After all, it is 1 in fuckin morning.
there was something else I was gonna sa- I GOT A 100% ON MY DRUG AN ALCOHOL TEST!! now i know thats not a big deal for most people because most people have had their permits for quite some time now. But for me, it's madd crazy bad-ass. i will be getting my permit in about "..5 business days.." ...?? not exactly sure what the fuck that means but i'm guessing business days are the same as American days. i owe doney and caitlin a lot for helping me with the final exam dealie. I love those two ladies a lot. they always seem to make my life a little better.
The love life is moving at the same pace..... like fuckin.. -17 miles per hour. Meh, it'll catch up to the rest of my life sooner or later. i'm hoping sooner... rather then later. I think i like a few people at the moment, but since this is an online journal, i can't really share any names at this time now can I?
the previous week...
school is the same old thing. Boring. honestly, what else is there to say about it? the weekend was okay though. on saturday evening i went to amber's party. It was pretty fun. Still waiting for her to put those pictures on her website hah. so many people are so anxious to see them. I can't wait. Happy birthday Amber. Sunday was lame though. I mean c'mon, it's sunday. It's never really anything to celebrate about.
That about raps it up. whoa, I had more to talk about then i thought. i think i'll post again soon to make up for my lack of entries. see ya later... cutie. |
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| a new beginning |
[Mar. 23rd, 2004|01:37 am] |
First day back to school. Let's see, there's roughly about 7 hours in a school day... I slept for about 6 and a half of them (I woke up for lunch). Looks like I don't have insomnia after all. What better way to get rid of a sleeping disorder then going to the worthless hell hole we call highschool? Contrary to popular belief, I'm not this huge failure or anything... it's just... I truly hate school. I hate the people (besides a select few), i hate the enviroment, i hate the bullshit they teach us, i pretty much hate every thing about it. If you agree... sweet-ass... we should start a club. And if you don't, then good for you cause I should really be more like you, but truthfully, don't want to be: don't care to be.
I don't really have that big problem anymore that I mentioned briefly in my last entry... if truth be told, i don't even know what the hell happened to the it, but it's gone... for now at least.
I'd still like to know who made the anonymous comments about my first entry. It's, honestly, not a big deal at all. i'm just interested to see who thinks those things of me. Also, whoever told me not to put that one line in there. You made a good point. I'd really just like to know who you are so just leave your fuckin name :). We can talk about why I put it there... say... over dinner? My treat?
It's about 1:30 a.m. and i believe i hear my pillow calling my name. It's like "shawn.... shawn!! get to bed!!" ....oh fuck that's my mom |
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| ...son of a bitch... |
[Mar. 21st, 2004|06:36 am] |
...son of a bitch... I can't even fuckin' believe it. Spring Break 2004 is no more. That's some bull shit if you ask me. We're at school like, what, 180 days of the year and they think like probably a total of about 30 days is enough time off? Fuck you public school system. You and your devilish ways.
but I have to admit, Spring Break was pretty awesome. Could have been better, could have been worse, but overall it was good. Started out on a slow start. I wanted to go to the beach a lot but I ended up not going at al...funny how it worked out like that...but actually, it's more shitty than it is funny lol. Then, I went to Caitlin's house a few times which was pretty fun. One of the times we all watched "School of Rock" which is a very badass movie. Mainly because I love Jack Black. also went to Tiff's once or twice which was also a good time. Beck and Caitlin got pretty close those nights... but i don't know I guess thats not workin out now. It's okay though cause they started as friends and they didn't get too serious so it's good that it stopped before it got started. I know they'll still be friends too because they're both too cool to let shit like that affect a really good friendship.
While were on the subject of "friendship/relationship" stuff... I'm really confused. I honestly don't know what to do anymore about my problem. I really think i've done all i can. Seriously, like if I did anymore i'd probably just fuck it up completely like i think i almost did earlier, but I really don't want that. In fact, that's the last thing I want. It's just soo hard for me because I'm so close, yet so far away from what i truly want. Sometimes i think that she doesn't even care and that I should just give up, but you should never give up on love... wow, I sound pretty homosexual right about now. w/e... it's fucking 6 in the morning and i haven't slept well in like a week so who really cares?
moving on in the Spring Break schedule... Thursday was badass. Went to Islands of Adventure all day. There was a few lovely ladies who joined us who we all got to meet pretty well. I mostly hung out with Melinda which was cool cause she's a very cool and beautiful gal. She had beef with one of the girls who was there. It's a long story... and I don't have that kind of time. Wait, I sort of do on acount of I HAVE INSOMNIA. Now i know a few of you are all like "shawn, quit being a dumbass... we all know you don't really have insomnia" but the truth is my faithful friend... during Spring Break, i've honestly gotten a total of about 20 hours of sleep. 10 days of spring break... 20 hours of sleep... you do the math.
On friday I saw "Dawn of the Dead" ...eh... not what I expected. It was okay. I didn't think it was going to be another one of those zombie movies. I thought it would be more righteous and kickass... but it turned out to be another one of those zombie movies, which I don't enjoy. Then I spent the night at Scott's which is always fun. Richie was there too and I hadn't seen him because he had been in Vermont for the majority of spring break. Speaking of spring ..Break.. he ..broke.. his collar bone while snowboarding. haha I know you liked that transition, bitch. Michelle was in vermont too for the majority of spring break so I didn't see her either. That was one major downer of my spring break. Not getting to see my two best friends at all, but it's okay, it turned out to be fine and I'll see 'em later.
Saturday was pretty lame. I was bored all damn day and it was like the last night of spring break where we can actually do something. beck and I just decided (after many attempts to plan something fun) to hang out around my house and take pictures of our gorgeous selves. It turned out to be okay, but I'm pissed that it's how I spent my last night of spring break.
Right now it's a Sunday morning around 6:30 and i haven't slept a bit. I actually got off the phone with Kirby not too long ago. Her and her boyfriend broke up yesterday. It makes me really sad to see one of my good friends get hurt like that. She doesn't deserve the pain that she's going through. Not at all. But Kirby's a really strong girl and she will move on. It'll take some time, but she will. Kirby rocks...hard.
So far, all I know of that is in store for the rest of today is gay-ass homework that I had all spring break to do, but I put it off until today to do it. w/e... lately I'm beginning to think that school is just a huge fuckin joke. I seriously hate the place with a passion. I've pretty much typed a novel in this entry. I need some sleep. For the first time in a while I actually feel like I may be able to sleep. I got something really important off my chest earlier and I feel sort of good, but sort of bad. I really don't even know. But I feel like I may be able to fall asleeekihjdldhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh |
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| In the beginning... |
[Mar. 19th, 2004|02:57 am] |
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This journal is so I can sit down when ever the hell I want and write about what I'm feeling. This journal is so I can get everything I want to get off my chest... off my chest. This journal is so I can have something to do when I'm really bored and/or really creative (as I often am). This journal is not for you. This journal is for me. You may be mentioned in this journal, you may have heard about things that I talk about in this journal, you may not even read this journal, personally I could care less. The point of this journal is for me to be able to write about things that go on in my life and reflect on them. Whether you get your kicks by any of the entries on here or not is totally up to you. But wait, I have a confession to make... this journal is a little so you can read it. I'm the kind of guy who needs a lot of advice on a lot of different problems. I'm also the kind of guy who has a lot of different problems. You're input will most likely be greatly appreciated and hopefully will be put to good use. If you're someone who gives poor advice then please, don't even bother. Oh, and don't think it's cute to put terrible advice on here, because it's really just lame and I would really just begin to not like you. Like here, for instance, you could make the suggestion that I'm rambling and that I talk too much. In which case, I'd tell you to shut the fuck up. Then, I'd make a suggestion of my own being not to give such shitty advice. Anway, I will update every once in a while and after each entry you will leave with a totally kick ass point of view- mine. Take it easy. |
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